Category Archives: Beta

Leaving

Here today
Gone tomorrow
Bitttersweet
Tears I see
But smiles too
Fond memories in the past
And hope
For future adventures
Together
Hugs abound
A needy touch
Don’t let go
Here today
Gone tomorrow
I won’t say goodbye
I won’t say goodbye

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In the Park

A gentle breeze
Blows my hair
Leaves swirl to the ground
Sun streams through the trees
Still there is shade
The heated air
Summer seems near
People enjoying the park
Babbling babies
The laughter of friends
Couples murmur conversationally
Along I sit
But not lonely
Today I am at peace
I know I’m loved
And cared for
I enjoy watching the scene
I’d love to spin around
and around
and around
My dress twirling out
Playfully
Self consciousness constrains
My instinct
Instead I watch the kids
Reminiscing of more carefree days
A friend walks past
We smile and hug
Parting ways with just a word
Enjoying the beautiful day
Each in our own way

Farewell

Feel the pain
The sadness of farewells
See the tears
in the eyes of many
This blockage, heaviness
in the centre of my heart
I wish I could release
through tears like you do
To show how I feel
might provide some validation
That I will miss you all
As much as you say you’ll miss me
I’m sorry, I’ve tried
The cries, they just won’t work
I think I’m broken
A river that’s been dammed
My heart seems stone
Encased in ice
Thawing yet to arrive
When I finally comprehend
I’ll let you know how I really feel
Inside

Waiting

I wasn’t feeling very charitable when I wrote this (May 21, 2017), but you are sweet, kind and loving so it is very hard to stay annoyed at you. I just get very sad that we don’t have enough time to hang out.

So you broke your promise
Don’t worry
I won’t hold it against you
It must have been important
I understand
My self esteem is damaged
I guess I’m not wanted here
It’s good I will be leaving soon
No need to make new promises
I know you are busy
And possibly worn out
Maybe you wanted to spend the time
With your potential other half
But at least let me know
Don’t say you’ll show
And then just ghost away
While I turn down other plans
Sitting alone
Looking like a fool
Forgiveness isn’t easy
I might be a little sour
So you broke your promise
Don’t worry
I won’t hold it against you
For now

 

Collaborative Composition

These writings
These musings
These poems
Unheard

Should I share?
Does anyone care?

Imagine, if you will
A musician deep in thought
She hums a tune
Then music fills the air

These writings
These musings
These poems
Sung out

Should I share?
Is it worth it?

The lyrics move me
The melody rises
Your beautiful voice
Brings life to these writings

2 Corinthians 9:8

God gives us what we need
Not always what we want
He knows what’s best for us
Though we might disagree

We can’t always see the bigger picture
We might be out of frame
But by His Will and Purpose
We help to set the stage

 

Mother’s Day

Outdoors
A beautiful day
Outwardly
Things are great
I’m smiling
The sun is shining
Internally
Things change

I’m happy for you
Really, I am
But right now
I’m alone

In the midst of
Happy families
Laughter and Joy
I sit in the sun
Alone
Hear my silent plea
I want a friend
A hug
Someone to hang out with
Me

Not wanting to encroach
I say nothing
Put on a smiling face
I know you are busy
Plans already made
So I don’t let you see
The hurt that’s in me

I’m happy for you
Really, I am
But right now
I’m alone

Its days like these
I wish I was home

 

A fleeting moment

Sun shines
Cold outside
People moving, talking
Multi-languages heard
Birds soaring overhead
Small oasis – calming and peaceful
Moment of quiet
Amongst the hustle and bustle
A fleeting moment
The time has passed
I join in
And move on